9DPO

DYING TO TEST!!!! I was doing great! I wasn't even thinking about it... then BAMMM! OH LORD I WANNA TEST! It doesn't help that someone on the NW board got a BFP on 9DPO. I need to keep my mind off of it! Atleast until Saturday! Geez!

Tyler is getting closer to us!

Christina spoke with Tyler's dad yesterday. He said he will sign the consent papers. He said he only wants what is best for Tyler. We're so excited!! Now we have to come up with $3000. My aunt said she would give us a loan. I just hate asking for money. I guess it's not like I'm buying a TV or something. It's for a good reason. And we could pay her back fairly quickly.

When Christina was speaking to Tyler's mom on the phone last night she heard his stepdad yelling at him. He said, "You didn't F***in forget your homework! You F***in forgot it on purpose so you wouldn't have to do it!"
That poor thing! NO wonder he hates doing his homework. Who speaks to a child like that?! Atleast we're doing something about it!

7 DPO

I think I've had a few pregnancy symptoms. Last night I was having some weird twinges that I usually don't get in my abdomen area. The biggest thing is my cervix. From the very first cycle I started tracking, I would check my cervix. After I ovulate, I do the reverse of what most people do. Instead of my cervix dropping and becoming hard and closed, my cervix will stay high, soft, and open until the day I start my period. I specifically remember this because it has given me false hope a few times! :) Yesterday and the day before I checked my cervix. Both days it was still high, hard as a rock, and tightly closed. This is very unusual for me! I really hope it's a sign! :) Wish me luck.

The meeting about Tyler.

Thursday we met with a lawyer to discuss how we can get custody of Tyler. She said it's definately doable, but it will cost $3000. She wants to try and get sole, legal custody. The only road block we may have is Tyler's dad. We have to get him to sign papers that say it's ok for him to live with us. I think we're going to appeal to him by saying we don't want any child support or any sort of financial anything. He can be totally free of him. Another dilemma is the money. We aren't super rich right now because of TTC, Christmas, and Christina's business is really slow right now. We're basically living off of my income. It's kind of tight. When we were home for Thanksgiving, my aunt said she would loan us the money. I hate asking for money. Especially since her husband just got laid off. She said it wasn't a problem, though. It's a tricky situation.

Tyler is really misbehaving this weekend. We've grounded him from his PSP and PS2 because he almost beat up a girl at school. He just got in trouble with Christina because he threw a fit because she had to go to the grocery store. He honestly acts like a 3 year old sometimes. It's really difficult because he gets no discipline at home, then he comes here and we give him lots of praise when he's good, but we definately discipline him when he's bad. I think he acts up at home because his parents give him NO attention and the only way he can get any attention is if he is bad. It's just a horrible situation. We definately need to get him here for good.

Between a rock and a hard place!

So, I found out yesterday that my best friend at work is going to be laid off. That was confirmed today. He doesn't know yet... he'll find out on Friday! I really wish I didn't know. But if I tell, I'll get in trouble. I understand why they're doing it, but it's still shitty. He has only worked here for 2 years and he moved here from Oklahoma. They promised that he would have a job. He specifically asked what would happen if business slowed down and they said not to worry about it. Who does this crap?! UGGGH.. People suck.

Feelin' pretty positive, but I'm not going to stew!

Today is 1DPO! Yay! I hate the two week wait! :) Luckily, I am really busy and I won't have too much time to think about it. I feel really good about our timing. In the book I have, it says that women sometimes wait too long to inseminate. So I tried an early one and a late one. I tested at 7pm sunday night and got a positive OPK after holding my urine for about 6 hours. So we inseminated that night at about 10 and went to bed. We did the same thing last night. I had tons of EWCM, but I still used some preseed.

It's so funny because this month I almost don't want to get pregnant because we have so much going on. (saying that will definately make me pregnant) :) There are some really shady things going on at work and I am really not happy about it. Luckily I have a few job offers on the table and I need to seriously start thinking about them. The difficult thing will be moving, starting a new job, trying to bring tyler, and possibly being pregnant. That's a lot! Oh well, my mom always said I did things the hardest way possible! :)

8 Days LATE!!!!

No... not my period... but ovulation was 8 days late. Today is the day I ovulate. We did one insem last night and we're going to do another tonight. Hopefully our timing is good. I guess stress just pushed it back 8 DAYS! :)

We have a meeting with a lawyer on wednesday to find out about custody and guardianship. We're hoping that it will be simple and inexpensive... but that's not usually what happens in my life. Things always happen the hardest way possible! :) Oh well.. it makes me stronger I suppose.

I'll write more after wednesday... here comes the TWW!