Between a rock and a hard place!

So, I found out yesterday that my best friend at work is going to be laid off. That was confirmed today. He doesn't know yet... he'll find out on Friday! I really wish I didn't know. But if I tell, I'll get in trouble. I understand why they're doing it, but it's still shitty. He has only worked here for 2 years and he moved here from Oklahoma. They promised that he would have a job. He specifically asked what would happen if business slowed down and they said not to worry about it. Who does this crap?! UGGGH.. People suck.

Feelin' pretty positive, but I'm not going to stew!

Today is 1DPO! Yay! I hate the two week wait! :) Luckily, I am really busy and I won't have too much time to think about it. I feel really good about our timing. In the book I have, it says that women sometimes wait too long to inseminate. So I tried an early one and a late one. I tested at 7pm sunday night and got a positive OPK after holding my urine for about 6 hours. So we inseminated that night at about 10 and went to bed. We did the same thing last night. I had tons of EWCM, but I still used some preseed.

It's so funny because this month I almost don't want to get pregnant because we have so much going on. (saying that will definately make me pregnant) :) There are some really shady things going on at work and I am really not happy about it. Luckily I have a few job offers on the table and I need to seriously start thinking about them. The difficult thing will be moving, starting a new job, trying to bring tyler, and possibly being pregnant. That's a lot! Oh well, my mom always said I did things the hardest way possible! :)

8 Days LATE!!!!

No... not my period... but ovulation was 8 days late. Today is the day I ovulate. We did one insem last night and we're going to do another tonight. Hopefully our timing is good. I guess stress just pushed it back 8 DAYS! :)

We have a meeting with a lawyer on wednesday to find out about custody and guardianship. We're hoping that it will be simple and inexpensive... but that's not usually what happens in my life. Things always happen the hardest way possible! :) Oh well.. it makes me stronger I suppose.

I'll write more after wednesday... here comes the TWW!

Tyler Update...

Well, Tyler's mom called christina today. She wants us to take him! She said that she spoke with him about it and she wanted him to understand that she wasn't trying to get rid of him, but instead, trying to help him and do what's best for him. She thinks he understands that. We're supposed to take him the first week of January. I hope we can get the guardianship stuff done before then! She said she would do anything we need her to do for us to get guardianship! I can't believe we're going to have a ten year old!

I'm doing pretty good at relaxing...but this part isn't the hard part. I don't mind waiting to ovulate, but I REALLY HATE waiting to test! :) Our spermies got here on wednesday. I feel good about this month! I would love to tell everyone at christmas that we're pregnant! :)
We called a lawyer about Tyler. We have a meeting the wednesday after thanksgiving. I'm hoping this will be easier than it seems. Christina spoke to someone at school and she said we HAVE to have court appointed guardianship. Our next step is to find out what that involves. It's all worth it, though. Whenever it starts to get overwhelming, I just think about how much he really needs us. It helps!
My mom told my dad that Christina and I are coming home for thanksgiving. All he said was that he is not going if we're coming. He acts like a freakin' 10 year old! I told my mom that he needs to suck it up because him being an ass is definately not going to change anything. Why can't he get over it! It's been 3 years since I told them! On the other hand, my mom is doing great! She actually talks to me about my life instead of just sitting there silent. It's closer to normal than ever! Family is so complicated!
I'll post more after we inseminate... it should be in a couple days! :)

A lot going on....

This is the week! I should be ovulating soon! Our shipment will arrive tomorrow at the earliest and wednesday at the latest. I'm trying to relax this time around. I don't want to obsess too much. I'm not going to worry about what I eat or how much coffee I drink! I'll just let it happen! Teenagers do it all the time! :)

Tyler was with us this weekend. He is getting more comfortable and also more defiant. It's interesting to see how our parrenting roles play out. I will mostly be mean mommy and Christina is turning out to be push-over mommy! :) He has a variety of ways to compensate for what he doesn't get. For instance, whenever there is something he wants and he knows he'll never get it (because his family doesn't buy anything) he automatically claims he doesn't like it. I feel sorry for him because that's his survival tactic. It's sad! We started a reward system this weekend. He made $5 by doing chores and listening. We let him buy a video game with his money. It was exciting for him! He kept saying over and over, I can't believe I earned this! :) very cute...

We haven't talked to his mother again about having him live with us. This weekend, we kind of planted the bug in his ear. He didn't like the idea at first, but we showed him the school he would go to and we played on the play ground for about an hour. After that, he really liked the school!

We're past the first hurdle...

Christina called Tyler's mom yesterday and she thinks that Tyler staying with us is a great idea! She agrees that he needs a lot of help that she can't give him. She was actually wondering what to do with him because she has two other children and she wants to move into an apartment by herself. She doesn't have the time or money for all three. We're so excited! Some of the things she said were pretty disturbing, though. She said he had seizures when he was a baby and that's why "he's so stupid". She fights with the school all the time because she wants him to be in the mentally disabled classes at school but the school disagrees. THAT'S BECAUSE HE'S NOT MENTALLY DISABLED!!! I think we could help him so much!

Here's the bad new.... We have to get court appointed guardianship to enroll him in school here. I think the only way to do that is to have parental right taken away. I don't necessarily want that to happen. I called an attorney and they said it usually costs $2000-$3000 to transfer guardianship. I really hope we can do it!

Christina feels that this is what she is here on earth to do! She's always said that she wants foster kids. We've already picked out his bed and bought him tons of clothes! We're so excited! Wish us luck on the guardianship part!

Tyler

Christina and I are in a pickle. I think I've written about this before. She has a cousin who has children all over the place with many different women. The woman he's been with for 9 years had a son before they got together. His name is Tyler. He is not related to Christina. His father lives in Tennessee. For the past two weekends, Tyler has stayed with us. The poor kid is 10, almost 11, and in the 3rd grade! He can barely read and can't do addition or subtraction in his head. We spend all last weekend working on multiplication and reading. He's never had a story read to him in his life. He is a size 10 slim, but his mom dresses him in ratty old 12 huskies!! His shoes are two sizes too big. He's just pitiful!
The first weekend we had him, he talked about blood and gory things all the time. The second weekend, he stopped doing that. I think he realized that we are just going to let him be a kid and he's really enjoying it!
I think we're going to ask his mom if he can come stay with us and go to school here. They live 1 hour away from us. I really think we have the time, money, and love to help him before he ends up in jail! How do you ask a mother if you can keep her child? You can tell she doesn't really care, so maybe it won't be so bad. I'm hoping she'll just let us take him. He's a smart kid, but he has no chance if he stays in that environment!
Let me know if you have any advice!

080F! 080F! 080F!

That's what Christina and I were chanting yesterday after ordering our swimmers!!! It just sounds good! O eighty F! They should be getting here at least by the 14th of November! I'm really excited! Hopefully this is it! I'm getting a massage on Friday and then again probably on next thursday. I just want to stay relaxed! Wish us luck!

That wasn't so bad....

On Sunday, we went over to Christina's brother's house and I met baby Ethan for the first time. As soon as I sat down, he brought the baby out and gave him to me. I didn't even have time to think. When I saw that baby, I wasn't jealous any more. He was sooo cute! Now I want a baby REALLY BAD!

SOOOOO.... we've decided to get back on the train and try this month. I don't care if I take another job in another city and I'm pregnant. We'll make it work! Today is CD2. I'm a little worried because last month my cycle was only 29 days long and it's usually 32-33. Hopefully I don't ovulate too early this month. I guess I'll just make sure the swimmers get here a little bit earlier than usual. My technique this month is to be stress free! I'm getting 2 massages and I'm going to sleep a lot! :) Hopefully that will help!

PS... I hate when straight people try to tell me how to get pregnant! Geez! Like I don't know! I hate it when they say, "we had to try for a year!" Oh poor you! You had to have sex every month with the person you love... that must suck! ( sorry, I've been getting a lot of that lately) :)